silly me

this is my third entry.

I don't even know how to find this blog. Silly me. Had to google search myself and even then it has taken me days to figure out that it's an @ickacangmachine page. In any case, here I am and glad I came. That's a reference to a song by The Wanted - Lukas, Jacob & Kristine were asking me if I knew who they were.  So I finally checked them out on You-tube today, and surprise, surprise, they are a boy band, I think from England, just like One Direction (who I like a lot!) "Glad I came" the video was all about Evissa / Ibiza and that is where we are headed for Sha-mayn and Tobias's wedding. I thought that was quite serendipitous.

Had a really bad back and front ache around my upper belly region last friday in the middle of the night. Siu and Dad took me to SGH A&E - poor dad was quite stressed out by the whole incident. It reminded him of the multiple times he drove mum there -- on his own - from Bedok. Those must have been very terrible times for both of them. It was also the 24th of August - mum's death day anniversary. He drove with his hazard lights on. I heard them talking in the front, I lay down on the back seat. Around the AYE I had to rouse to give them directions so they wouldn't take the wrong exit off the highway. So funny. My 2 men.

This was the first time I had been to hospital besides my rehab times and lazik op. First time I remember having to have a needle in my hand for the doctor to draw blood! Was less traumatic and frightening that I thought it would be. Funny thing is, I recognize the Filipina nurse who put the needle in! They did blood tests and X-rays, & the long and short of it was, they gave me an anaema, (another first! I had to wear an adult nappy - YUCKS!) said I had been constipated! That was it! Oh well. People pay lots of money for detoxing colonic-irrigation type treatments - we paid $99 haha.

Gotta go get ready to take my body downtown now.

Second Entry

Not sure how to do this. Should I create a new blog or just continue here? testing 1,2,3

waiting on Lao Jiu "老九"  to finish so I can have my husband back! He is wow-ing audiences with his performance. for some, they are just amazed and super impressed by his Mandarin & Hokkien acting ability. he is really good in it. moved me to tears. but that's also because of the music, he has such great songs.

been doing a bit more exercise lately in an attempt to lose some weight, it's getting ridiculous. I was at 70kg, heavier than my father. *Groan* back to 65kg now, should get to at least 55-58kg - 50kg would be my ideal weight I think. after all I am all of 5'1' (or 2" sometimes 3 when I lie) walked to St Mary's said a prayer at mum's niche. also at Eugene's plaque and a prayer for Tua Ku - my mum's brother - whose ashes are in the next room to my mother.  it's gonna be 6 years since he passed. 1 Aug 2006. so fast time goes.

family are coming round tomorrow. looking forward to seeing all the kids again. especially my darling  - Baby E !!!!

Midsummer is here, and lingering. Very bitter sweet time for me. My birthday. My friend's death day. My favorite cousin and god-sister's wedding day. Usually never celebrate it. It was always during school hols when I was a kid. and I was always conflicted whether I liked that or not. Pre-school days, dad always had a party and cake for me. Of course I don't remember any of those, it was always family, I only remember it because of all the photos he took. Black and white of course. but you can always tell which birthday it is cos cake would be shaped 1 or 2 or 3 or 4 or 5. I have bout 20 cousins on my mother's side, I think that was the last count. I am number 3. My god-sister D is prob number 19. I probably got that all wrong. it doesn't matter.

No work till October. Sigh. Idle mind. Longing to get away. I miss Baby E. He makes me smile.